Lol. Circling back around to this before I nuke everything in my field.. from my 'lonesome' ('loner'? 'recluse'? 'previously overstimulated') perspective... I actually think 'policing' is a healthy urge/tendency.
(Enacting 'policing tendencies', though - it's just futile & like forcefully self-bashing one's head into the ground if one isn't in an 'enforcement' position. And, like 'cranky old people with passive-aggressive tendencies & nothing better to do than to follow me around with a camera so that I would get fined $300-1000+ or possibly jailed because my wheel was touching the pavement where it 'legally shouldn't have been' but I was going at less than 10km/h... It's just stupidly pointless & a weird power issue.)
I do think people have gone a bit too far with their single-minded obsessions with certain values, like DeFi & 'to make death optional' (well... if someones are going to invent Cryosleep chambers, it's only going to be for the ultra-rich... I don't mind having such a plaything if I'm ultra-rich, which ultimately means hoarding & changing a fundamental value of mine lol which I am) or Mark Zuckerberg's mega company where they just create stuff that they wouldn't even let their kids touch 🤷🤣🤣🤣👽👽👽.
Ultimately, people just want to do what people want to do. And while I DO feel the discomfort & dissonance of being in a lifestyle real estate 'community' because of certain 'colonialist' models/energy... To be exceedingly honest with myself I HAVE HAD ENOUGH of 'community' AND especially Westerners in 'the healing arts' having a very 'high & mighty' approach, unusable personal/financial growth models for myself etc. pretty much just taking themselves WAY TO SERIOUSLY while treating their Traumagenic business/developments/therapies/whatever based off Endogenic cultural appropriations (yet treating Traumagenic 'coping mechanisms' from persons belonging to the Endogenic cultures that they RIP OFF, as if they're so much lesser creatures LOL or 'low consciousness/naieve')... And then collectively 'reprogramming their minds' like they're playing a freaking 'computer game' to 'escape the Matrix' (& getting high on money & power/influence that is only possible because they fall back on western colonialist institutions/structures that cause Traumagenic mechanisms in the first place... LOL 🤷), whatever that means to them. And they just go on being some kinda vapid crap, which is just fine for whosever minds they manage to captivate.
It's what drives me to look at stock market charts where I couldn't concentrate before. Lol. I have stopped caring about anything else irl or feeling a need to connect with ANYONE. If I can buy or build myself a place or several somewhere like The Ark, that's great. But I am also prepared for a miserable 'mediocre' life & to be misunderstood 😂 while I basically talk & sing nonsense. 🤡👽🤣🤣🤣🤷🤌🤌🤌🌬️🌬️🌬️
What's been grounding for me with RT (despite 'everything else') had been the land-based self-sufficiency focus/components. I don't think/feel like it's 'cultural appropriation' to eg. use & spread/champion permaculture principles... But it's always feeling like a strange lopsided power dynamic to me. Lol! 🤷 Especially with my strange kind of 'neurodivergence', everything is now just overstimulating overkill! 🤣🤣
It really all just comes down to:
People are gonna do whatever they do.
A 'spiritual POV' would be 'we're all just avatars in the game of life, learning & growing' but I'm pretty tired of 'spirituality' & prefer to descend into my own bubble of 'unconscious negativity' as so deemed by 'lightworker guruspeak' 😂😂.
For what it's worth... it does feel like you're pretty well-positioned for whatever you want to do. Good luck w it!!! 👍👍👍🥕🥕🥕🙏🙏🙏👾👾👾
Lol. Circling back around to this before I nuke everything in my field.. from my 'lonesome' ('loner'? 'recluse'? 'previously overstimulated') perspective... I actually think 'policing' is a healthy urge/tendency.
(Enacting 'policing tendencies', though - it's just futile & like forcefully self-bashing one's head into the ground if one isn't in an 'enforcement' position. And, like 'cranky old people with passive-aggressive tendencies & nothing better to do than to follow me around with a camera so that I would get fined $300-1000+ or possibly jailed because my wheel was touching the pavement where it 'legally shouldn't have been' but I was going at less than 10km/h... It's just stupidly pointless & a weird power issue.)
I do think people have gone a bit too far with their single-minded obsessions with certain values, like DeFi & 'to make death optional' (well... if someones are going to invent Cryosleep chambers, it's only going to be for the ultra-rich... I don't mind having such a plaything if I'm ultra-rich, which ultimately means hoarding & changing a fundamental value of mine lol which I am) or Mark Zuckerberg's mega company where they just create stuff that they wouldn't even let their kids touch 🤷🤣🤣🤣👽👽👽.
Ultimately, people just want to do what people want to do. And while I DO feel the discomfort & dissonance of being in a lifestyle real estate 'community' because of certain 'colonialist' models/energy... To be exceedingly honest with myself I HAVE HAD ENOUGH of 'community' AND especially Westerners in 'the healing arts' having a very 'high & mighty' approach, unusable personal/financial growth models for myself etc. pretty much just taking themselves WAY TO SERIOUSLY while treating their Traumagenic business/developments/therapies/whatever based off Endogenic cultural appropriations (yet treating Traumagenic 'coping mechanisms' from persons belonging to the Endogenic cultures that they RIP OFF, as if they're so much lesser creatures LOL or 'low consciousness/naieve')... And then collectively 'reprogramming their minds' like they're playing a freaking 'computer game' to 'escape the Matrix' (& getting high on money & power/influence that is only possible because they fall back on western colonialist institutions/structures that cause Traumagenic mechanisms in the first place... LOL 🤷), whatever that means to them. And they just go on being some kinda vapid crap, which is just fine for whosever minds they manage to captivate.
It's what drives me to look at stock market charts where I couldn't concentrate before. Lol. I have stopped caring about anything else irl or feeling a need to connect with ANYONE. If I can buy or build myself a place or several somewhere like The Ark, that's great. But I am also prepared for a miserable 'mediocre' life & to be misunderstood 😂 while I basically talk & sing nonsense. 🤡👽🤣🤣🤣🤷🤌🤌🤌🌬️🌬️🌬️
What's been grounding for me with RT (despite 'everything else') had been the land-based self-sufficiency focus/components. I don't think/feel like it's 'cultural appropriation' to eg. use & spread/champion permaculture principles... But it's always feeling like a strange lopsided power dynamic to me. Lol! 🤷 Especially with my strange kind of 'neurodivergence', everything is now just overstimulating overkill! 🤣🤣
It really all just comes down to:
People are gonna do whatever they do.
A 'spiritual POV' would be 'we're all just avatars in the game of life, learning & growing' but I'm pretty tired of 'spirituality' & prefer to descend into my own bubble of 'unconscious negativity' as so deemed by 'lightworker guruspeak' 😂😂.
For what it's worth... it does feel like you're pretty well-positioned for whatever you want to do. Good luck w it!!! 👍👍👍🥕🥕🥕🙏🙏🙏👾👾👾